REWIND THE POETRY

2012-02-02T20:47:00.001+08:00

Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive
Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
Look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love
Look me in the heart and unbreak broken, it won't happen

Where do you go when you're in love and the world knows
How do you live so happily while I am sad and broken down
What do you say it's up for grabs now that you're on your way down
Where does the good go, where does the good go

- Tegan & Sara

2012-02-01T20:05:00.001+08:00

even in betrayal, i trust. even in fear of pain, i love.

2012-01-29T23:52:00.005+08:00

Balqis turned 21 on 19th January 2012 :)

2012-01-29T11:55:00.005+08:00

Things that I want and NEED to use but decided to fail on me EVERY SINGLE TIME: (here's a list, yeah there's a list)

My blackberry id for application world.
Yahoo messenger! -what the eff is your problem ey?
Skype!!!!! Don't get me started on skype.
Facetime.
UberSocial and sometimes, whatsapp too.
Subtitles for downloaded movies.
My blackberry which has no memory card so setiap kali nak ambik gambar dia cakap no memory card so mintak kaki rasa macam nak jerit. This one is basically my fault for not having a memory card tapi kenapa perlu memory card?!?! Tak boleh ke cipta satu alat baru.....k nevermind.

Technology hates me. Vice versa.

2012-01-27T19:43:00.001+08:00

1 tahun 3 hari :)

2012-01-25T23:17:00.005+08:00

“So avoid using the word ‘very’ because it’s lazy. A man is not very tired, he is exhausted. Don’t use very sad, use morose. Language was invented for one reason, boys - to woo women - and, in that endeavor, laziness will not do.”

- Dead Poet Society, 1989

2012-01-24T23:54:00.001+08:00

2012-01-23T13:15:00.000+08:00

In my next life I want to live my life backwards. You start out dead and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old people’s home feeling better every day. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, and then when you start work, you get a gold watch and a party on your first day. You work for 40 years until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You party, drink alcohol, and are generally promiscuous, then you are ready for high school. You then go to primary school, you become a kid, you play. You have no responsibilities, you become a baby until you are born. And then you spend your last 9 months floating in luxurious spa-like conditions with central heating and room service on tap, larger quarters every day and then Voila! You finish off as an orgasm.

— Woody Allen

Always and always

2012-01-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Holding on

2012-01-13T22:20:00.001+08:00

Only 2 more papers to go! :)

Eleventh

2012-01-09T14:51:00.010+08:00

They say that the world was built for two.
Only worth living if somebody is loving you.

Sara got an Ipad naw

2011-12-28T00:54:00.002+08:00

Sleepover before finals! 100 fun points for us :)

Another Highlight of 2011

2011-12-26T09:01:00.005+08:00

Wawa's 20th birthday celebration.

................................................

Syoe's Akad Nikah

(small) Reunion with my AKSB girls

Self Reminder #1

2011-12-21T23:39:00.008+08:00

1. Tolong jadi lebih yakin.
2. Tolong jangan lemah.
3. Tolong jangan kuat menangis.
4. Tolong jangan terlalu clingy.
5. Tolong belajar untuk independen.
6. Tolong jangan terlalu banyak fikir.
7. Tolong jangan sedih.
8. Tolong jadi happy.
9. Tolong telefon kawan-kawan yang jauh selalu, just to let them know you still care.
10. Tolong rajin untuk solat.
11. Tolong jimat duit.
12. Tolong percayakan diri sendiri.
13. Tolong beri diri peluang kedua.

Tolong.

Minggu terakhir untuk Semester Dua, tahun 2012 akan di sambut bersama buku dan kertas periksa. Then insyallah my upcoming posts will be from Negeri Di Bawah Bayu. \^_^/

1/2 of 2011

2011-12-16T09:16:00.020+08:00

I'm sorry

2011-12-11T03:04:00.006+08:00

I am not always good in expressing myself with words. I'm scared that this will turn out wrong or misunderstood, but whatever.. I just need to shake this feeling off. This heavy and sad feeling I feel deep in my heart that I've been trying to ignore and erase.

Is it really true when they say "Happiness is only real when shared"?

Well, I don't really think so. Living the life I live now, where everyone around me is being so ridiculously selfish, the word happy and share is not suppose to be in the same line. Is it really fair to be happy for someone but that someone was never really happy for you? ataupun is it fair if you give 100% of your love and effort to a certain someone and you share every bit of your happiness of your life but you never really get back the same? You feel like you are the only one who still gets excited each month of being together and your tummy still have those butterflies flying each time he holds your hand or plays with your hair.

Maybe happiness is only real when shared with the right people.

I don't know. I know I have my flaws too. and I know kalau sayang buat apa nak tunjuk? Tapi kalau dah tak pernah nak tunjuk macam mana nak tahu yang sayang tu ada?

Welcome back, December

2011-11-30T23:40:00.004+08:00

Malam terakhir untuk November.

& satu bulan sahaja lagi dan 2011 akan tamat.

Can't wait. ;)

Smile Like You Mean It

2011-11-28T14:14:00.004+08:00

Still Corners dengan rasminya sudah menjadi my favourite band. Been listening to Demons and French Kiss from morning till now.

Last week (so far) was the busiest and the most hectic week of 2011! Mandarin written test, contract law case review assignment, contract law test! and towards the end of the week, sibuk ke hulur ke hilir jadi adhoc for UiTM Mock Trial the Musical. (which was a total success! taniah semua!)

Sigh. and more test, presentation and assignment tengah berderet tunggu lagi.

The perks of being a student ey? :[

On a lighter note,

10 months :)

If you could travel back in time to change an event in your past, would you?

2011-11-17T13:03:00.005+08:00

No.

Temporary

2011-11-15T23:37:00.004+08:00

Taip. Padam. Taip. Padam. Taip. Padam.

Keluar bilik.

Masuk bilik. Keluar. Masuk balik.

Baring.

Kosong.

I need something to regain my sanity back-

Tahu tak perasaan yang macam, the room is full with people and you socialize, you smile, you laugh, you respond to what they say, you make silly jokes. but yet, you still feel alone.

Yeah, perasaan itu.

Nasi lemak with paru-paru lembu

2011-11-12T22:56:00.009+08:00

HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK

The trip got even better when we head up straight to Sungai Gabai for some sexy time with air sungai and slide down the huge rocks like nobody's business! and yeah, I had a sudden memory loss that my cuti has come to an end and my assignments is terbengkalai..

Hello reality, we meet again. (◕︵◕)

Triple L

2011-11-10T14:12:00.007+08:00

Mula-mula nak buat my favourite lyric quote from Sigur Ros on my other wall, but it was too long and I got no printer, so I choose Live, Laugh, Love and free-handed it... My letter A and U look so cacat but its okay.... it looks good enough for me. Hehe.

My next project(s): Print out new pictures & buy photo albums.

MonoChrome

2011-11-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

Currently doing my Malaysian Legal System assignment. but ter-RnR sekejap kat website ni.

Hanya tuhan sajalah yang tahu betapa menyesal nya aku tak fully concentrate in mls class. WHY YOU HAVE TO BE SO HARD? and I'm doing it by my own summore.. and its 15 percent summore?!?!?!?!?!

sssssigh. Selamat malam, beautiful world.

I was never gone, I was here all along

2011-11-08T14:39:00.005+08:00

Currently on my part 2 mid semester break.

Cepat betul masa berjalan ya. By April 2012, I will be in my second year.

s c a r y..............

Updates on EVERYTHING in between my last post till... now.

Moved in my new rumah sewa (also known as crystal). walking distance to bus stop UiTM, which basically is a total plus and my housemates are total angels, 165865 points for that too.
Sedikit demi sedikit, I am loving Constitutional Law. but I am still trying to figure out how to answer the exam questions :S
Kaisya is now doing her 4 months practical in Langkawi. Had ayam penyet wong solo together before she left.
Zhulaikha is still (and forever will be) in the Dean's List. and also we attended her first runway in Sg Wang :)
Did (not so) well in my tarian zapin test, but did well in my inang test! Hehe.
Watched UM Mock Trial for the first time ever. & now looking forward to watch UiTM's :D
I'm with Arif for 9 wonderful months now ♥
Kak Yanie had an operation for her endometriosis problem.
Abah got a promotion and now he is in Sabah :)
Secretly went to Johor and met Arif's mom for the first time..
Arif got his first doc martens and salomon shoes. O.O
Rode the bicycle in the rain around UiTM. Tiring, but so much fun.
Got a new Kakak who knows how to cook lidah lembu! :D
and!! Finally got a new laptop from Abah! I am blessed.

Well ada banyak lagi of course, but I just highlighted the important ones :)

I still don't know why I have the heart to open this blog again... mungkin sebab banyak benda exciting and fun yang jadi lately dan aku mau tulis somewhere so that in future, I will look back at these posts and smile.

Kau buat lek je.

2011-08-09T12:02:00.004+08:00

Its funny how simple things like not having the same view about something can make friends turn against you.

I have my stands. I know what I read. I know what I learn and I am eagerly to learn more. I respect your views, but why can't you respect mine? Hmm. Maybe you should just stick to what you know.

Kau buat lek je. Aku tak kacau kau pun.

Hallucination > Fantasy

2011-08-08T21:09:00.007+08:00

Sedihnya.

I thought dreams at night supposed to be beautiful and calming? but why am I haunted by these terrible awful nightmares? Jenis nightmare yang bila saat kau bangun, mata kau terus berair dan buat kau confused mana satu realiti dan mana satu mimpi. Jenis nightmare yang kau akan ingat. Jenis nightmare yang akan buat kau terfikir-fikir.

Lagi sedih bila aku sedang mula percaya yang nightmare tu semua mungkin ada possibility untuk berubah menjadi realiti.

Ya Allah, takutnya. :'(

Black stripes rainbow

2011-08-05T21:43:00.002+08:00

Hugs Not Drugs - Incubus
The Funeral - Band of Horses
Agaetis Byrjun - Sigur Ros
Teardrops - The XX
Faith - Taking Back Sunday
The Nicest Thing - Kate Nash
Fix You - Coldplay
The Girl - City and Colour
Sedetik Lebih - Anuar Zain
I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab for Cutie
Someone You Used To Know - Zee Avi
Selamat Jalan - Lucy in the Loo
You Are My Sunshine - Copeland

Let's have a toast for the douchebags!

2011-08-04T23:14:00.009+08:00

Ni hao, everyone! Hao jiu bu jian.

Eceh. Baru level 1 dalam mandarin sebenarnya. Saja nak show off. :P

Work has been an ass lately. or maybe its not the work yang bikin aku serabut. Maybe its the people surrounding. Aku sedang ambil semua benda secara positif, so I will just let it go. I really need to be more bersabar and tenang this time. Lagi-lagi tengah bulan puasa ni. Plus I desperately need the money. Taknak lah sebab rimas dengan orang, aku nak quit. Lagipun, segan lah nak mintak duit kat Abah lagi. Bil yuran pun dah keluar, and duit deposit rumah sewa pun still belum settlekan.

*cries*

Kena duduk rumah je lah, tunggu raya and duit raya! :D

Argh stress nya...why can't I just write like I used to. So many things running through my mind right now but I can't really typed it out in words. *cries even more*

Haih. Zai jian, bitches!

Bahagia itu kita yang ciptain, bukan mereka.

2011-07-31T12:54:00.009+08:00

I strictly cadangkan kamu semua untuk menonton filem Radit dan Jani. (ish why ayat so formal) I've watched it in youtube semalam tengah hari, dan walaupun tak ada subtitle and I can only understand 40% of the bahasa, but I must say, I loved it!! Pada awalnya, I know the movie will be good, but never expect it to be THAT good. or maybe its just me. Very emotional, brutally romantic, kinda sid and nancy like kind of movie, versi indonesia. Menangis seperti bayi pada saat-saat akhir cerita.

100 cool points for Radit dan Jani. ^.^

OH! Tioman was so beautiful. had so much fun swimming with rainbow coloured fishes!

Sudah tamat masa untuk bersuka ria, harus ke kantor besok dan menjalani kehidupan normal semula. Blergh, reality sucks.

Getaways

2011-07-24T21:21:00.012+08:00

Melaka was fun!!..... but ridiculously hot.

Wanted to visit the zoo, tapi satu hari memang tak cukup untuk jelajah satu negeri. :(

So, yeah.

- Going for another exciting trip with me monkeys tomorrow night! Nyet.

will update properly soon x

Beautiful

2011-07-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

Brb

2011-07-14T15:57:00.003+08:00

Need to organize my life

You && Me

2011-07-12T13:01:00.002+08:00

You and me
Two people who making memories
With no worries
You and me
Two shadow
Run together to find some rainbow
You and me
Two people who play hide and seek
To find you, i need heart technique
You and me
Two people who rebuild some dream
In the middle of reality
You and me
Two people who will killing time
With laugh and smile
Without any lie
You and me
We
Us
Eternally Happy

__rahne putri

┐('⌣'┐) (┌'⌣')┌

2011-07-11T13:32:00.004+08:00

Adakah masih trend masa kini lagi untuk wish birthday kawan di blog? Lol.

Selamat Hari Jadi yang ke 20, Zakwan Anuar!

Soaked in bleach

2011-07-07T17:00:00.008+08:00

I miss myself when I couldn't care less about anything that is happening outside the circle of my life.

but look at me now. Talk about changes huh?

To be perfectly honest, I kinda like myself like this. Banyak sudah yang aku baca dan baca. Never been like this before. Tapi baguslah, bila orang bercakap pasal hal ni aku tak ada lah membodoh buta. Bila dalam kelas nanti, tak ada lah aku belajar sebiji-biji. Tak ada lah aku ikut je semua tanpa ada fahaman apa-apa. At least I know something. At least I have my beliefs. Tak kisah lah siapa yang betul atau salah...

At least I know something. rather than knowing nothing.

and sibuk nak "luahkan perasaan" tak tentu pasal.

Eh, it's July already?

2011-07-03T09:59:00.004+08:00

What I've been up to lately:

Got a part time job in NSTP that pays 50ringgit per day.
Learned that before being successful and rich, one must be a kuli first.
Thinks that rm6 is not a reasonable price for nasi goreng biasa with telur mata.
Been reading and browsing a lot about the upcoming rally and politics in negara ku malaysia.
and scared that I might get obsess about it :\
Diharamkan untuk guna telefon rumah selama-lamanya.
Being emo and overly sensitive with almost everyone around.

Ok.................. thats basically it! Haha!!

lyFe iS sO bOrIng~~

Priority

2011-06-27T11:38:00.001+08:00

Thank you for the amazing night! Here's to forever. x

❁ ❀ ✿

2011-06-26T01:46:00.009+08:00

Hello. This is the unbalanced hormone blogging again! Selamat datang ke blog loser yang tiada visitor. The truth is I am actually happy that no one reads this crap anymore. as I only blog my nonsense emosi dan perasaan yang tak ada siapa nak layan.

YANG TAK ADA SIAPA NAK LAYAN :'(

k buying pretty flowers for myself tomorrow because no one loves me

oleh sebab itu, i have to love myself

Past, present and future.

2011-06-25T00:26:00.010+08:00

Lari. Lari dari semua masalah yang tak dapat nak handle. Lari sebab buat silap dengan orang lain dan malu untuk mintak maaf. Lari dari semua wrong moves yang terbuat dulu. Lari untuk avoid benda yang negatif yang kau dah biasa buat. Lari sebab dah malas dengan hidup yang lama. Lari untuk berhijrah? Lari untuk berubah?

And when you run, secara tidak langsung you will start a new life. Hidup baru, suasana baru yang kau sendiri create untuk lupakan benda yang lepas. So that it won't haunt you. You make yourself busy with the new life that you've created. tapi satu benda yang kau lupa. Those things you left behind when you lari. Those unsolved past yang belum settle. Walau kau happy macam mana pun, that time will come when suddenly you realized banyak benda yang tertinggal belakang that need to be corrected.

Then again, perlu ke toleh dan lari semula kebelakang? When you are doing so well now in the present.

I don't know. What past is past bak kata orang. Mungkin kata orang tu betul. Aku dah banyak berlari dan aku mahu berhenti. I am tired of running. I just want to live today without turning back and focus on the future. Hmm.

Okay sebenarnya ini hanyalah mood swing saya yang bercakap. Its 2 am and I can't sleep and I find a lame reason to write this post. Gah~

Ne me quitte pas

2011-06-24T13:23:00.003+08:00

150 Days!

Soothing Noises

2011-06-22T13:59:00.002+08:00

If I'm just bad news, than you're a liar

2011-06-21T00:27:00.005+08:00

My first year degree result were out last Thursday, and its bad. Very bad. Not happy with it at all. but yeah, who am I to complain, I deserve it. Sesuai lah dengan effort yang 0.0001% tu.

Benda yang patut diambik serious, aku pandang temeh. Benda yang temeh, aku pandang serious. Haih.

This, I need to change. And changing is hard. Lagi-lagi kalau nak tukar ke benda yang baik...

help ☹

From Hero to Zero

2011-06-06T20:26:00.003+08:00

Hello!

So the modem broke down for the 88th times. So dissapointing. but on the bright side, I will not be lazying around depan laptop, reading lame and weird status on facebook.

Btw Arif's game is this weekend. and I'm so excited for him!! Hehe. I never get this semangat about any sports before.. -_- Plus, I can't wait for all these to finish, I want my boyfriend back :(

ok tu je bye

ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

2011-06-03T19:07:00.004+08:00

I have so many things to say but I don't know where to start lol so typical of me

Anyhoo, I went to the supermarket today and seludup a box of instant brownies in the trolley. been doing that since little. Only back then, it was keropok and air warna2 dalam botol bentuk arnab.

Welcoming June

2011-05-31T17:00:00.002+08:00

Things are doing so well for me right now. Everything is so stable...so in place. Just the way I wanted it all to be. I'm very very grateful. Mm, I'm currently on my 4 month break and I need something to keep me busy, hence explains the sudden blog post. Plus, everyone suddenly decides to migrate to twitter and tumblr . Bleh. Bosan. Semua aku tulis semua dapat baca.

Lets just hope this one will last longerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. x

Recap!

2010-09-30T00:13:00.052+08:00

Alhamdullilah, zaman ulang-alik dengan bas Sani Express sudah berakhir! Macam tak percaya je 1 tahun setengah ni berlalu sekelip mata je. Rasa macam baru semalam je post kat blog dapat tawaran masuk uitm. :') I'm gonna miss everything about being an asasi undang-undang student. Hmm, tengah rajin ni, jom tengok perubahan dari Sem 1 sampai Sem 3 jom? :)

Semester 1

Law B with Wawa, Chi and Laily :)

English sketch!

Futsal

I survived H1N1! :D

Debater's Annual Dinner

Campus Day Out!

Sambutan Hari Raya

Semester 2

Still, in Law B :)

Celebrated Wawa's 19th Birthday!

HAHAHAHHA DAMN, I MISS THIS

Balqis turns 19!

Then, Sara turns 19 too! :D

Campus Day Out!

+ Countless karaoke sessions, dinners, and random hangouts.

Semester 3

Muka dah matang sikit.. hahahahaha

Celebrated Qayyum's birthday

Buka puasa tepi pantai tc! :')

Our last night in Kuantan before Hari Raya

*Just realized that tak pergi Campus Day Out pun Sem 3. Haha. Mungkin sebab banyak sangat balik kot, gambar pun tak banyak. dan masa berjalan terlalu pantas. Sedar-sedar, dah habis final lepastu dah farewell dinner.

Nak 1 Malaysia sangat kan? :P

My favorite girls!

Kuantan will always be one of my favorite chapter in life! Although most of the time I complained about how lame and boring it can be at times. I will surely miss Bukit Sekilau, Padang Lalang, Teluk Chempedak, Pak Cik Hadi! Haha. :') Haihyah, I feel so all grown up already, I want to krai...