I'm sorry

I am not always good in expressing myself with words. I'm scared that this will turn out wrong or misunderstood, but whatever.. I just need to shake this feeling off. This heavy and sad feeling I feel deep in my heart that I've been trying to ignore and erase.

Is it really true when they say "Happiness is only real when shared"?

Well, I don't really think so. Living the life I live now, where everyone around me is being so ridiculously selfish, the word happy and share is not suppose to be in the same line. Is it really fair to be happy for someone but that someone was never really happy for you? ataupun is it fair if you give 100% of your love and effort to a certain someone and you share every bit of your happiness of your life but you never really get back the same? You feel like you are the only one who still gets excited each month of being together and your tummy still have those butterflies flying each time he holds your hand or plays with your hair.

Maybe happiness is only real when shared with the right people.

I don't know. I know I have my flaws too. and I know kalau sayang buat apa nak tunjuk? Tapi kalau dah tak pernah nak tunjuk macam mana nak tahu yang sayang tu ada?